WEIRDNESS

Its funny how people can sometimes get your name wrong...usual wud be 'ZETTY', 'ZETI' 'ZETTIE' and the furthest ppl wud go is 'ZATTY'. However that day @ d office, a despatch guy came with a note searching for a 'ZAPI KAMAR'? (Macam 'hati kama' je). Nearest sounding name wud definately be mine kan & true enough it was for me...

I was like...What d H*LL? God, wonder how they 'creatively' came up with that name...HMMM! Klaka pun yer jgak.

DOWN?!@*

Been feeling VERY MUCH "UNDER THE WEATHER" work-wise. Sangat tak bemotivasi tahap "GABAN"! Seriously its really BAD! Gotta dragggg myself out of bed every working day & dread the feeling when urs truly's office is in sight...SIGH!!! Still at d same old division, with d same old "drama" kings & queens & ultimate "DIVA" and not to forget the never ending "DRAMA" daily with MR X. Makes things super-duper BAD for me...


Request to transfer division was turned down, reason being "wait till evaluation period ends"...In my head, was thinking TO HELL WITH EVALUATION...I just WANT OUT! That simple, its not like I'm ever guaranteed a '4' out of '5' evaluation anyways. Wud expect d same usual '3' as per d past 3 damn years or paling teruk a '2'. I cudnt care less!


Oh boy, no point ranting panjang2 pun coz am still stuck at this 'HELL HOLE'!


Can only pray that a miracle would happen soon Insya'Allah God-willing...AMIN!

SCAPEGOAT !!!

Been SUPER LONG since I last updated...so many things been happening. Boss's mum passed away...had to handle a few events single-handedly. Was definately DAMN & DARN tiring!!!

On top of that, had to cover other work & handle...if only I had 8 hands like Mr Squid!

Besides that some fire-fighting dramas @ work...Urghhh, DRAMA3!

Life's like that aint it? All d above I can tolerate & work my way through, but when you are choosen to be d SCAPEGOAT- just because ur d 'smallest fish' in the pond & d 'BIG Kahuna' is 'ALWAYS right'...you 'fortunately' blamed...tongue-lashed at with words like 'STUPID'!...'Dont know how you guys work here'...bla3, and it gets worst when you choose to stay silent coz no matter what you say you are 'WRONG' (In the Kahuna's eyes dat is)! It's too MUCH...especially when you get to know some time later thru ur boss that BIG Kahuna admitted that she was actually WRONG and you get all the 'F_C_ing' CRAP SHIT for nuthin! Just because I'm d 'small fish'! 

DAMN YOU BIG KAHUNA!!!!

 

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH...D TOUGH GETS GOING!

Contemplating...contemplating!

Part of me says its time to MOVE ON! Part of me says, Neh! dont "DO IT" & stay on! Since late yesterday evening few times I was about to walk over to Mr X & hand over "D Form" but somehow my steps terhenti. Guess Im more overwhelmed with FEAR of how his reaction would be...I mean knowing d "CNN-ness" of his mouth. The NEWS is definately gonna spread like 'WILD-FIRE"!

But then, untill when do I have to bear with the TORTURE...him treating me like Im WORTHLESS...dedicated KULI BATAK of his??? Sp not WORTH IT! Enough is enough...I've decided I'm gonna hand him "D Form" today. Come what may...at least I've tried.

 

Despicable...Insensitive...Inconsiderate & all other similar adjectives!!!

Last Thursday nite (29 Oct 09), already had d feeling dat I was gona be down with fever. Was feeling hot at times & at times shivering with cold. Told myself I cannot afford to be sick coz there's SOO MUCH to do @ d office the following day especially since 'beloved boss' wont be around.

Early wee hours of Friday morning (30 Oct 09), felt my head heavy & floaty at the same time...body ached terribly...felt really cold too. Told Mr Hubby dont think can go to work. So, before I continued sleeping I was typing sms to boss - to inform him that Im unwell & wud be on MC. However, d fever & dizziness was bad dat I fell asleep again while typing the sms.

Shortly @ appx 8.58am my hp rang but still heavy headed I just couldnt bring myself 2 answer d phone. Hp rang again frantically 5 times (looked at d screen & well what dat u know...dat person rang). Immediately after I answered, without hesitation & in d expected annoyed tone; he asked "You kat mane?". I said "kat umah -demam".

Then, as expected for the umpteenth time his reaction "La, demam?..OK LA"! (Still in d much annoyed tone". Then, slammed d phone down. I was like - DUHHH! Its not by choice dat I intend to be ill!! And yeah, didnt expect him to say "Get well soon" oso nways. But at least be a lil bit more courteous & sensitive to your subordinates - We're human too you know! Just because your d BOSS doesnt make any exception that you may treat others insensitively & of NO VALUE! Just pray dat one day "yours truly" will get taste of "his own medicine", AMIN!

Oh well, dats one of d situations dat I had & will have to bear for the past 2 years & hopefully not for long any more. Time to move on to somewhere we the grass would be greener for me Insya'Allah. Pray for me...

Hari Lala Sedunie ;)

Hi People...Am sooo enjoying this day. Big Boss takde, Lil Boss takde...yang ada cume circle of frenz yg sama2 'huha' (having fun)! I was browsing d net d whole morning...Ramainyer org buat online bis. Feels like nk start my own online business as well. Business baju best jgak ;p

Tapi mmg enjoy ari ni, Kak Sal (Big Boss's scretary) suggested dat we have a pot luck. Ape lagi, smue agree. Being d professional chef dat I am (NOT!!) I opted to buy 'kuih bakar' hijau je dari kedai unkel Salim. Easy way out...beli jer! So, kat ofis no dah bape kali round mkn.

After dis, nk celebrate birthday 1 of our colleagues plak...mkn lagi! Hope d cake will be a nice creamy cheese cake for a change...instead of d usual chocolate cake.

Oh well, back to work for now...Lalala!